Back in February I dropped this site. Burned out from too much stuff going on I felt like I had nothing good to share. School stuff could only take me so far (though I wish I had kept up with it, I would have had a lot more posts).
I could tell something was not right. So, when talking to my neighbor teacher, I told her that I was going to keep my head down and do my job.
A month later I found out why everything felt all weird. The boss that would roam our halls in the morning, greeting us almost as enthusiastically as the pastor working three doors away did in the morning, and spending time listening to our concerns and successes was out of a job in another year. I found out because I was out of a job as of May 28.
I cried. I cried for days after it really hit me (took almost twenty-four hours). I cried six weeks afterwards as they were leaving to go home. I, somehow, managed to not cry on the last day of school. I cried nine days later when I woke up.
Yet, as I have begun to understand it in my thirty-someodd years of life, life is still happening. The world didn’t implode the day that I walked away from the thing that had consumed my life for the previous ten months. I miss it dearly. I left a changed person. Nevertheless, here we are.
And, to be honest, life is not too shabby. There are things I could still complain about but there are a lot of great things happening too.
Around the time (literally, the week of) I found my first decent paying writing gig. I am a ghost writer for another blog and get paid fairly well. It really is a dream come true.
I have finally fallen in love with my graduate school major. The first two classes I passed with good grades but neither made me feel like I was in “grad school” and they did not interest me as much. Not I am doing in depth research on the generic advertising of commodity agriculture. You know, like the “got milk” commercials. I get where I want to go with my program too. Just not sure how to vocalize it and have it make sense. I feel like I am rambling when I talk about it which, conicidentally, is what I feel like I am doing here.
Plus this summer has been really fun, though caotic, so far. I’ve gotten to go back to the East coast. Was supposed to to go to New York City but was not able to… (instert eye roll) but I guess that means I will be going back ASAP. I miss New York, that place genuinely has a piece of my heart. I’ve gotten to go back to Texas long enough to help hubs move out of the house that we lived in for almost three and a half years. While I was there I got to attend an event for teachers, have a birthday, and go to an interview for a job that I might not hear back on until closer to the beginning of next school (and would be teaching at a school five times as large as Hubbard).
This past weekend was spent in Illinois where I got to meet my neice for the first time. I know now that mean mugging is not really what she does in all those pictures, she’s just a serious baby. Today? Today we leave for Pigeon Forge.
I want to share my life with you. Part of why my blog got so off track is because I am stuck on what other people want my blog to be. How to increase my numbers. Why I should post every hour on the hour over on Facebook, why I should have a “niche”, ect…
I have a niche. I am that niche. There is no one the exact same as me before me and there will not be another me after me. (PS. Same goes for you). So as of today, expect posts about coffee, about love, about travel, about my life.
See you tonight!