I’m nervous though. That whole thought of failure is really seaping in. Why? I just got in to grad school. Let me repeat that (for myself) I… JUST… GOT… IN…. TO… GRAD…. SCHOOL!
Like, when I first found out, I felt like jumping up and down. My fourth period Nutrition class might have looked at me a little oddly though. So I sat there, looking at the screen and then looking at my kids who were working. Excitedly shocked.
Now, I guess I am just shocked. Wondering if I can handle a career (not a job) and grad school. Wondering if this now allows me to be an authority on my passion. Am I not anyways?
At BlogHer Food they talked about how everyone else markets themselves as the master of their field and we should too; however, society argues with them. I am a woman, I should feel guilty. In a weird respect, I do. I have not posted this on my Facebook page or told anyone besides my mother at this point. What if I upset someone? And I don’t want to sound like it’s all about me.
Maybe my lack of excitement comes from the fact that I am older (but I am not old, people) and I realize that this is just one more step in my journey.
Yes, maybe it does mean that I have more authority to talk about my topic. Does it mean that for everybody? No. Does it mean that to me? Yes. It’s my perception on things and that’s okay…
But, in case I didn’t say it, I got into grad school.
More details? I will be studying sustainable food systems at Green Mountain College. It’s in Poultney, Vermont so obviously I will not be attending school in person for 99.7% of my time. Which means for the other .3% I will! I get a 5 day intensive workshop towards the end of my schooling and I already cannot wait.